Moody Day...

Today is not a great day for me. I'm so moody! Maybe it's because I get scolded from my mum early in the morning and I get irritated for the whole day.

My family, Aunt Vicky and Uncle Norman planned to skip church service today and go to Port Dickson for fun, without me and my brother. It's because both of us has something to do today. Every Sunday morning, I suppose to go to church at 8.30 am for quiet times, but today, I felt lazy and I skip the class. So, I continue to sleep. Then, suddenly my mum knock at my door and start scolding me for not telling her that I'm not going and she just created many problems which actually can be solved easily... And so, I get irritated early in the morning. Due to the cancellation of my Chemistry class on the past Wednesday, my teacher had a replacement class on today, 1pm to 4pm at Delta HQ! I hate to go to HQ with the all the vehicles and traffic jams. Once again, it affects my mood.

After service, I try to rush to send my grandpa home, help my mum to deliver the flowers, send my brother and my maid home and reach HQ before 12.30pm. However, on my way driving my grandpa back, some so called experienced drivers followed my back and start honking me because I didn't proceed at the junction. It's not that I don't want to, it's because there is no space in front for me! Plus, my car is turn to the direction where obviously, I'm not going to turn left but to the other side of the road, and still, so many cars that wanted to turn left followed my back. I'm irritated enough to be honked and my brother start yelling at me and tell me what should I do like he is a more experienced driver than me. Again, the level of happiness drop.

When I reached my mum's shop, there is no more parking for me to park my car and so I decided to park behind somebody's car. I took the flowers and close the shop asap and the fellow I'm blocking wants to leave the place.....Then, I ask my brother to just put the things in the car first, I have to make way for the car. Then, for some reasons, my anger rose. I put my brother's things away and one of the things is the cubic thing. The thing is cubic, and it rolls down when I remove it. Then my brother hit me with his book scold me that the cubic thing belongs to his friend! Can you believe it? He just hit me! This time, my level of happiness drop to 0% immediately and my anger level rise to 100%. I yell back at him and I ask him to leave the car and told him not to ask me to drive him anywhere since he is so unsatisfied with my driving skills and me! We quarell and then we stop. Obviously, he won't get down from the car, and tears begin to roll down my cheeks. Delivered the flower and send them back then head straight to HQ. Along the way, I'm still very frustrated and I keep on crying. When I reach HQ, I try to calm myself down and pretend that everything is OK.

The class ends and I reach home at 4.30pm. I think God wants to tell me something through Eason Chan's concert I heard in the radio this morning. Before the concert started, there was a girl telling about love, which is taken from a bible scripture from 1 Corinthians 13:4-8.

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
Love never fails.

After thinking of this scripture, I feel so guilty. I know that I was wrong this morning for being so rude to my mum and my brother. Although I'm in a bad mood, they are still my family and I love them more than anything else. To my brother, David, I'm so sorry for yelling at you this morning and the day before. I promise that I will control my anger and will not ask you to walk back home again. To my mum, I'm sorry for getting angry at you this morning. I know that you are busy and there are so many things waiting for you to be done but I'm always so selfish for not giving your things priority but my own stuffs. I will try my best to make you happy and be a good girl. I promise.....But please give me time to prove it to you that I can do it.